Saturday, October 24, 2009

Progress





Prokofiev                                        Van Zweden
Last night, my sister Judy and I enjoyed Prokofiev's Romeo and Juliet with Jaap van Zweden and the Dallas Symphony Orchestra. I've always liked this composer, especially as a child: Peter and the Wolf was my introduction to the instruments of the orchestra. After the fabulous performance, we got to meet Jaap in person and thank him for his commitment to stay with us in Dallas for another five years.  He's an incredible conductor!

A dear friend is going through the final stages of the divorce process.  And it sucks. It just does. But time can heal. Just for a laugh consider: My divorce papers arrived in the mail on Valentine's Day when my son was a year and a half old. I can laugh now, but at the time I just drank.

And now, decades later, I've got enough perspective to see that what at the time was the worst thing that had ever happened to me, became a catalyst that (18 months later) moved me into a new and much better, saner life. I was eventually able to face my drinking problem and start to get some help for my son and myself. 

Since June, I've been committed to tackling another problem: lack of activity / weight.  I am loving hot yoga, climbing stairs and hiking at the lake, and maintaining a pretty steady relationship with Jenny Craig.  The result is 30 lbs later I've lost 26.5 inches! So it's possible that this "too too solid flesh would melt."  

The phrase that keeps popping into my head this week..."Don't quit before the miracle happens!" and it happens every day...

Peace, love and Prokofiev!

Tuesday, September 8, 2009

Dawn speaks to me






Slowly the pink pushes up and out
Like a flower starting to unfold
The blue sky scoots over and welcomes
Another beautiful morning

Sunday, August 30, 2009


great honking flowers 
Robert Kushner

wow i love red!

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

loved

For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.

opening my mind to the sacrifices made that we might flourish
thank you god for your loving care 
may i remember today that i am not alone

Sunday, August 9, 2009

my mom saw things in the clouds too-

I guess it runs in the family
Not crazy, really I'm not
The cloud looks to me--
Like the man from Galilee

Sunday, August 2, 2009

Saturday, August 1, 2009

in need of guidance


Open my eyes, that I may see 
glimpses of truth thou hast for me; 
place in my hands the wonderful key 
that shall unclasp and set me free. 
Silently now I wait for thee, 
ready, my God, thy will to see. 
Open my eyes, illumine me, Spirit divine! 

Open my ears, that I may hear 
voices of truth thou sendest clear; 
and while the wavenotes fall on my ear, 
everything false will disappear. 
Silently now I wait for thee, 
ready, my God, thy will to see. 
Open my ears, illumine me, Spirit divine! 

Open my mouth, and let me bear 
gladly the warm truth everywhere; 
open my heart and let me prepare 
love with thy children thus to share. 
Silently now I wait for thee, 
ready, my God, thy will to see. 
Open my heart, illumine me, Spirit divine! 
                                               ~~~ Clara H. Scott

Friday, July 31, 2009

The river of God is full of water


swan
Originally uploaded by jdidear
You visit the earth and water it, You greatly enrich it; The river of God is full of water; You provide their grain, For so You have prepared it.
You water its ridges abundantly, You settle its furrows; You make it soft with showers, You bless its growth.

You crown the year with Your goodness, And Your paths drip with abundance.

Thursday, July 30, 2009

Trees make me happy 
I love the sky and the clouds
I love looking at water
But trees bridge the gap between heaven and earth
Their arms and fingers reaching up
Their toes digging down deeper and deeper

I want to climb trees and rest in them 
Lounge on a limb
I love trees

Wednesday, July 22, 2009

With apologies to Sir Mix-A-Lot


I like long legs and I can not lie
You other sisters can't deny
That when a guy walks in with long lean legs
And shoulders like he could fly
Your heart pumps
Wanna slip up close in front
Cuz you notice that
There's something jacked
Bout the feathers he's wearing
I'm hooked and I can't stop staring
Oh, baby I wanna get with ya
And take your picture

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

each sunrise holds promise

my life has changed
each sunrise holds promise
sharing my thoughts and prayers with another, listening to his 
has opened my heart
the lord has given me more happiness than i thought possible
and still it comes

Friday, July 3, 2009

aging beautifully

Like a lovely magnolia bloom gracefully aging so hope I to unfold gently into my next stage of life. After a month of careful health management and a week of daily hot yoga, I have lost weight, 12" of fat, and tight / stiffness. In turn, I've gained mobility, positive thinking and more excitement in life! The amazing changes in my body as I become more limber and aligned bring a smile to my face as I think on it. What a blessing to me- one that I feel I will continue.

Sunday, June 28, 2009

the lotus opens

Sumer vacation began Friday, and for a while, I'm treating myself to a stay-cation.  Do it yourself yoga boot camp, with 90 minutes of hot yoga daily. Daily prayer and meditation. Reading, writing, and a moderate amount of shopping.  
Now for my evening bike ride... God is great, life is good.

Friday, June 19, 2009

the guys

The OBF and his dog Mozart

Not sure what the statistical odds are for reconnecting with an old love and rekindling the same intensity of feelings as before...

but so far, I am quite swept off my feet!

Taking it, as all things, one day at a time, with the exception of making plans to see him again.  When you live five hours away, you have to lay things out in advance...

Sunday, June 14, 2009

Old Mossy

My high school sweetheart lives in a lovely small town in Kansas. This week I visited him there and met these woods near Elk City Lake. 

Mossy tree
Got my green stockings on
Patient
Waiting 
Reaching out in the quiet morning

Tuesday, June 9, 2009

25 or 6 to 4


the party was over time to go home
i jumped in my car and cruised down the access road 
windows down, blaring jeff buckley
"don't fool yourself, she was heartache from the moment that you met her"

came to a stop at the light, and out from the underpass he ambled
dirty white t shirt declaring "happiness is GOD"
styrofoam cup in his left hand, he reached out with it
shook it gently as he approached

i waited; not wanting to be the first to speak
he didn't either it seemed

but he moved closer so i stopped him with words
"i'm sorry, i don't have any money"
he held his stance with the cup out and straightfaced it:
"do you have the time?"




Words of love

Words of love, soft and tender won't win a girl's heart anymore
If you love her than you must send her somewhere she's never been before

(the mamas and the papas)

Sunday, May 31, 2009

abounding in love


The lord, the lord, the compassionate and gracious God, slow to anger, abounding in love and faithfulness, maintaining love to thousands 

Thursday, May 28, 2009